So NOT in the mood.
Can’t get out of my own way.
It’s wearing on me.
This whole job search thing,
Future not in my control.
Will we have to move?
What about first grade?
What about BamBam’s preschool?
Will we still live here?
I hate not knowing..
Yeah, sure it’s an adventure,
should be exciting
Like a blank canvas.
I can’t shake anxiety,
I want to know NOW.
All of the job leads,
cover letters, interviews,
like a full time job.
Except, I have a job
and I am working more hours
to keep us afloat.
Don’t even mention
reason we hired lawyer,
THAT’s still unresolved.
I am exhausted.
Not the summer I hoped for.
No time to relax.
No time to enjoy
kids and lazy summer days.
I’m getting bitter.
My last nerve is there,
dangling by a thin, thin thread
just about to SNAP!!
I don’t blame husband.
This was so unexpected.
I’m just so…angry.
Trying to be strong.
He doesn’t need extra guilt,
Thinking I’m not well.
I want to rewind
back to this perfect morning
Seems so long ago.
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12 months ago i was in your shoes. now i’m living in thailand!! hope it turns around soon for you.
Aruba, darling. Aruba. That’s the only word I have for you. I’m beginning to think this is the perfect opportunity to say goodbye to the state and become expat who sing the Dutch national anthem.Seriously.Love you and I know whatever you do or whatever happens, it will be for the best!
I am so sorry. Mine was unemployed for well over a year and finally had to take a job in another state because we were out of options and starting to sink. I get it. It’s frustrating, but it sounds like he is employable, and it will happen. Hang in there.
Sorry it’s been such a stressful time for you and the summer has not been so much fun. I hope things get better soon and you can enjoy the holidays in a few months.